Should I still be a student?

It's true... I'm a student, a part timer to be specific... I take Korea class since December last year (gigih.. :P)

The reason and the only reason I took this class is just for fun.. I truly enjoyed it, it also help me as a problem reliever... And it was going well until last month...

Last month I had finished Level 1 - Yay!!! Good job! I can read Korean now.. understand few words and can bragging about that to my friends... hehehe... The total 10 people in my class is very nice.. we were happy will our effort... Then, the question came out.. "Do you want to continue for Level 2?"

Being an 'adventurous' me.. :-P, I want to continue to Level 2.. Yay! It was fun and I can meet new friends.. It was something out of my routine and also I can relieve some tension... I knew I was not a bright student when come to language but I survive Level 1 and it was not that bad...

Level 2 begin.....

It was a major step up... The new teacher is good and ................. serious, strict, energetic and demanding... Huhuhu... We got homework and all other students seem so good... Now, every time before class started, I feel restless.. She will ask question us (in Korean) and wait for student to answer. I feel pressurize to answer the question (in Korean also), when it come my turn and if I can't answer she will pointedly asked me, which part that I don't understand.. And then she will ask the class and they can answer it! Arghhhhh... this always happen... Me, a bad student!

It is not that I'm not trying... I did.. well maybe not as much as others.. but... Language is my nemesis.. It is like I want to be a singer, but I can't sing.. I don't have the talent... But I really wanna be a singer. The same with language.. I love to learn language.. I tried Arabic, German and Spanish before but I was so bad.. Now I tried Korean and I gave it a little more effort.. but, still I'm so slow.. Should I give up? Learning Korean is for fun.. that was my reason.. But I was not so much fun anymore... Instead of a tension reliever it becomes the source of my tension.. I still have 2 more classes to go before the next payment... I'll give myself 2 more trial and see how it works for me... 

Here some pictures:

Me doing a homework...

 Me studying...

 Me trying to remember words by write it down at my office whiteboard.. It's in my own office, so it's okay :) Hoping by looking at it all the time will help me memorize it

Me sticking some note at the side of my Computer to make it easy for me to memorize it...

See, I'm doing this much but maybe I'll admit defeat soon... Everything is too much. I hate being stupid in the class. I must admit.. language is my weakness. I spent my whole life learning English and still not good at it. How can I be optimistic in learning Korean?

Bubble shoot!!!

I'm on final level!!! Yay!!!!

Great killing time' game...

Give it a try... You gonna love it! ;-)

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I hate

Being an engineer in a research institute...

Being a researcher in a maintenance unit

Can people make up their mind already? Stop making me run both way!

When we wanna do a project with engineering application, you said there is no scientific content.

When we wanna do a research with scientific content, you said not enough skills in the scientific field.

When we do service work, you said we should produce a scientific paper.

When we concentrating on making a scientific paper, you said you should do maintenance service as well since it's your expertise.

Stupid!

Today is a bad day!

Stupid!

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ding dong

Oh my.. Such a long time.. I'm gonna try to write here again. Been so busy with works and life. My life is kinda.... Not the same. Maybe I'm getting old. I have so many things in my mind.. Made so many mistakes along the way...

Ok.. Let me try write it down some of it... Again, note to myself. Keep writing!

Let me remember....

1. I started 2012 by getting sick. I had a cold starting 1st january and it last for about 2 weeks.. Then I had cough for almost a month. My body seems weak in 2012.. I got food poisoning 2 times already since new year. Had a fever once.. And feeling tired (lazy :-P) almost all the time..

2. I'm getting more drowned in Korean wave as of lately... I watched a lot of Korean drama and movie, went to the concert.. Being crazy of FT Island, Super Junior and Big Bang... But it's not all bad, this also trigger me to take a Korean Language class... I had taking this class for three months already (12 sessions) and I'm getting a bit better in Korean language.. Haha. But don't be impressed yet.. Out of 10 people in my class, I will put myself at no. 8 or 9... I'm one of the worst student.. But yet.. I was truly enjoying myself... Now I understand how it feel to be in the bottom... The whole my life, as a student.. I was rarely to almost never been outside of top 5% (sorry for bragging, I dare to say that it's at least 80% true :-P).. The main reason is maybe because I never did or embraced something that I'm not confident with... But taking this class and being in the bottom 5%.. It makes me feel................ Cute! Hahaha....

3. My best buddy... One of the famous (self proclaim) mizzou best buddy had coming back to Malaysia.. I was so excited waiting for GG at the airport and having our first lunch together in Malaysia.. I was truly happy. Unfortunately she is not all mine... I only got half a day with her but then opportunity came when GG had a business trip to Singapore... Now I can spent more time with her... But the truth of the truth... I don't think we really spent many time catching up.. And I'm actually regret it for not really just sitting down and forget that we were in Singapore... And being a bad friend as I am.. Again, I forgot to wish GG, her birthday on 20th Feb.. I did remember but then... I dont have any excuse... Nothing I said can change the past..Even though you said it's ok.. But here.. Again, I wanna said... I'm really really sorry for forgeting... And I can only apologise...

4. Also, starting 2012... There was a major changed in my work task in office as well... The 1st month is hell for me. I h.a.t.e it so much... I was trying my best but people keep complaining... I can feel the silent rejection... I was so tired battling with myself, with situation... I was angry. But... As the time passes, I'm getting used to it. I finally face and accept it. This is my challenge. I need to do what is trusted to me. No matter what... What I need is patient and a lot of it. Now, I must think for others as well... Being a good person and keep trying my best. I believe, my staff will feel the same. After all we are all only human.

5. I'm buying a new car. With so much things happening... As my depression getting deeper, I need to cheer up! One day I woke up and feeling that I need a new car. The decision is fast and simple... After back and forth thinking on which car I want to buy... The decision came to me just overnight. It is time to say good bye to my old car. However.... Tragedy in Bangkok did actually affected me.. My new car will only available on April... The funny things is, even though I realized this.. My absentminded me putting an advertisement of my current car a bit too early... To be exact.. On mid Feb... Who can expect, around 7 people actually called and asked for my car... I took off the advertisement after a week, I was panicking. I need my car till April. What the heck did I do? I was so surprise by the numbers of people who interested... Maybe I sell it too cheap? Or maybe my car is in high demand? Anyway, I cant sell it before April... So, I will let the fate decide. Let see if people still interested when the time come.

6. Last but not least... The reason I'm writing again in this blog is.... I just bought a new samsung galaxy tab 7.7!!!! Yay... I'm crazy~~~ First of all... I got my htc desire hd just some times ago.. But but but.. I can't write blog on my htc.. It's so small.... It is not convinient... Anyway it is a great phone.. And galaxy tab is not a phone (for me)... I need tab for: 1. Reading manga 2. Writing blog (actively?) 3. Play games 4. Do reports/documentation while watching tv or on the bed 5. Write notes while in the meeting, workshop, talk 6. Surfing internet better 7. Plan my daily agenda 8. So so much more... Conclusion: I REALLY REALLY WANT IT SOOOO MUCH!!!!! And here I am... Having it and liking the fact that I have it. Also... I got a very interesting and valuable story when I bought this new toy. (ops, I mean gadjet).. But I'm so tired and sleepy to continue writing now. But it also a story that I want to forget.

Until next time... When I have so many things in my mind that I need to let it out.. I'll write again. To my friends who read my blog.. Thank you... Even if it only me reading this.. I'm also satisfied. After all... I'm the biggest fan of my own blog... Hahaha...

Tata...

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