What the hell?

This is a story of one insignificant guy...

I happen to know this guy through online chatting.. It started on World Cup 2006... I was so happy to have a friend who I can discuss about football(soccer) a lot and not getting bored with my never ending story of how great FC Barcelona is... Seriously, I realized my limit with my real friends.. they seriously will abandon me if I talked nothing but only Barca Barca and Barca with them :P  So, this guy was my savior... By time, we were getting more familiar with each other.. we started talking about something else as well.. In a way we became closer.. We talked on the phone almost everyday... We exchanged picture, telling each other about things that happen in our daily life, shared a current technology (we have the same interest on gadget as well)... He became a good online buddy to me... 

The friendship continue like that for two years... I was glad that I knew him. and I'm seriously still talking about Barca non-stop with him.. And he always listened and respected me.. From time to time.. I pop a question about his status.. because as for me, I'm worried.. Is it okay for me to talk with him for so long at night.. Will it be okay? You know.. I'm curious... I know for sure there was no romantic feeling between us because he never flirt with me.. So, when he was missing for a week.. I asked if he is getting married.. For unknown reason he denied it.. And as for me, what I care right? But I'm getting suspicious.. So I asked many times after that.. he still denied it.. So,ok.. maybe I think too much...

Then.. one day.. I got a rubbish message from him... It was so weird.. Why he sent incomprehensible message to me? So out of his character... So, then I called him... Can you believe who answer my call? A woman.. At first I thought she was his girlfriend.. the overly jealous girlfriend.. but then she told me.. She is the WIFE! I'm so surprise that I can't process the conversation... And what worse.. She was angry with me.. She warning me to never call her husband again! I'm really speechless at that time.. I feel the need to explain to her that we were just friend and I never know about her.... Then we (me and the wife) had a few conversation with me trying to comfort her telling that she got all this wrong and she should asked her husband herself of the reason that I never knew her existent.

As a person, I don't want to jump to any conclusion... I can't call this friend anymore (the line is cut) but I knew his email address coz we were also communicate by email b4. I asked him why he lied to me. I told him that I knew he didn't had any bad intention.. we never talked about love or anything related to it.. But I need an explanation... I was expected him to at least say sorry to me.. For lying to me and for his wife action.. I want him to at least apologize! He after all..was a good friend...

But I never heard anything from him. He never reply the email. Never contact me. I was sad but it's okay as well.. My conclusion... he just someone that cross my path in this life.. I found a great forum already to talk about Barca ;-) and I have many other friends... But one day (after a year) I realized, he subscribed to my youtube account.. apparently we can search friends through email address..  what the heck? Is he stalking me now? I'm so angry at that time.. I closed my youtube account.. Then a few months later... He request me as his friends in facebook... Then, I asked/consulted my friends about this.. then I decide, whatever.. he was my friend maybe he want to apologize and furthermore he didn't matter much... I have 300++ friends in fb anyway... 

Maybe I shouldn't have any expectation after all.. He never apologized.. He just asked if I'm still angry and when I said maybe he didn't say anything.. And then he started give comments on some of my pictures in fb.. I deleted most of it as i found it was not a good comment... I was cold to him... most of the time I just ignore him.. well, he never apologize and things just can't go back like it used to be.. Then one day he wrote in my wall.. He told me that it is okay to be a friend with a married guy.. I was like? What the heck? Are you crazy? Did you think I don't want to be his friend because he is married? OMG! This shallow minded guy.. totally not worth it.. So I just ignore him.. whatever.. not important..

And now.. the reason i wrote this long entry... After almost a year never heard about him (wait.. maybe he did wish Happy Eid few months back - I can't remember..) Anyway, today he did something stupid again and I'm really pissed off.. He tagged me to this unknown picture.. I was wondering and curious.. who is this lovely girl? his wife? Who is this? Then I read the comments below the picture... There is no him in the comments as well.. Why he tagged me? Is this my long lost sister that I don't know but he happen to know? Then I realize.. The girl is talking with her friend in a friendly manner and the other friend jokingly warned her that he gonna report to her husband that she flirt with others and she reply that she don't care (jokingly)... I was like.. Is this the reason he tagged me? To tell me that it is okay to be friendly with a married guy???

I have enough of this stupid guy! I don't care if he was married or not to begin with.. I just hate liars! Now - unfriend is the best action... I pitied him.. he should get over with this long time ago.. Some people just have too much free time... please be happy with your own life... and stop bothering me!

^_^ end. I'm gonna go back home and watch "City Hunter" staring Lee Min Ho = 이민호

안녕... 

Small things...

I really have a bad memory...

I do remember the 'big' or 'major' thing but often forget the small things..


How to improve this???

And I always heard people said.. "The small things that you do.. matter the most!"

:'(   T_T

My bday party...

It's in the middle of the exam week.. but somehow we manage to have a small celebration of my birthday... but unfortunately some of my friends can't make it due to that.. So, this is some pictures :)))


:))

Speku.. Speku.. (On-Hold)

I'm having a second thought on this post and for a meanwhile, I'm holding the post.. It's not too bad, it just.. not sure.. too much writing creativity maybe.. That's why I said.. I need to re-think this.. In other words.. I need Purp opinion on this.. hehehe.. Purp, when we both online.. I'll publish it and we'll see from that..

Reason: I don't want (again) being label as a stinky-heart person because.. If that person doesn't know.. or too blind to realize, I loved her, I did love her.. and that make me hate her even more.. And I do hate her.. Seriously.. How could she ruin a beautiful friendship??? How could she????? Maybe it's nothing for her.. (Ok.. I'm back to my self-pathetic way.. damn her!)

On the other hand: get over it Saira, it's been a year (or more) shittt! I am pathetic :o

editted: Ok.. I made my mind.. No need purp opinion.. I just let it go.. no re-post on 1st entry.. :p

The GREAT News...

Inilah takdir ketentuan Ilahi.. AKu bersyukur yang amat2.. Macam it was mean to be je.. Tadi aku di ajak oleh my new cute manager untuk pegi tengok projek di lab ***. Aku yang ala2 nak tinggalkan Mesia ni mestilah tak berapa minat kan tapi kami dimaklumkan we are needed there just as a consultant.. So aku pergi la.. So, sampai2 sana we met this expert.. Mula2nya aku just concentrate on the problem (projek tu la).. We are getting serious.... Then.. My new cute manager warning us.. Hik hik hik.. "Jangan serius sangat.. we are only consulting them.." Wow.. very the protective.. Takut dia kalau kitorang bawak balik projek ni (I'm so touched..)

Anyway.. waktu minum2 tu (after we conclude the problem :D) Kitorang borak2 la ngan expert tu.. He is from US! (Now I'm very interested) and he work at Washinton University in St. Louis.. Nak tau St. Louis tu kat ne? Kat Missouri la.. Hahaha.. The place that I'm gonna go! He is Iraqian (asal usul la tapi dah jd warga US).. Wow.. very the great news.. Then, more great news.. dia ada project usahasama ngan Uni aku.. University of Missouri-Columbia.. A BIG Project.. 3MilUSD budget punye project.. Wow... Then anak dia pun akan masuk Mizzou gak next year.. So, he seems very interested la nak kenalkan his daughter kat aku.. hihihi... Dia siap mention lagi kalau aku good, aku leh buat summer project ngan dia kat Uni dia and he gonna pay me.. Wow.. Coz he need interns la.. I'm very the happy you know..

Now I have his home number.. his cell number.. his e-mail address and he already jemput me to his home.. Wow.. I feel safe and happy now.. He also said he can help me settle down.. he said he know a lot of people there (well, since he live there kan).. He know a Muslim community and a good Muslim family (who can take care of me?).. I'm really really grateful to Allah.. Inilah doa aku.. Semoga aku jumpa orang yang boleh guide/tolong aku or take care of me while I'm there.. Now, abah will not have to worry too much la.. Inilah hikmahnya kalau ikut nasihat ibu bapa.. Kalau ikutkan aku, aku memang pilih Uni of Pittsburgh.. Thank God aku pilih Mizzou..

Kalau aku bernasib baik.. Aku akan sambung PhD kat sana.. Wow.. (Ini cita2 je.. hehehe.. dah carried away la ni..) Anyway.. Sememangnya takdir aku.. It was mean to be for me to go to that lab and met him.. Our path cross at Malaysia..

American Idol...

Tadi aku chatting2 ngan catz.. dia tanya aku.. "Why aa, heran ek, you tak tulih langsung pasal AF".. Well, dulu2 aku memang fanatik sikit ngan AF ni.. ala waktu zaman dia gah seantero Malaya.. Tapi ntah la now, aku rasa cam kureng sikit.. maybe blom lagi tapi mmg dari season 4 ke atas, aku rasa af dah tak berape besh..

Anyway, I always ikut American Idol.. bukan sebab aku nak pi Amerika no.. Dolu2 tak penah ku terpikio nak gi America.. I nak gi Spain u know.. huhuhu.. Barcelona gitu.. tak pun as close as possible la.. U.K for example.. huhuhu... Apapun, back to story.. I like la American Idol ni sebab diorang selalunya berbakat beso.. dan aku selalu ada fav.. tapi selalunya fav aku kalah la.. huhuhu.. for example, yg 2 season lepas, aku suka Katherin McPee (ejaan aku sure salah ni) dia kalah ngan mamat rambut putih main harmonika yang tak la best sangat tu.. Pastu last season aku minat si Blake tu, ala mamat yang hip tu yang selalu buat ala2 Justin Timbelake (Tapi Justin wat tak besh la, dia lg best).. Tapi si Jordin tu lak yang menang.. So this season aku minat kat..drrrrrrrrrrrrr (ala2 bunyi drum slow)rrrrrr.... DAVID!!! YeeHaaa!!!!! Bukan! NO! Not that David, the other David.. meh la ku letak pic dia..

Ni David Archuleta kegilaan ramai tu.. Dia ok la.. best.. tak dinafikan..

Tapi ni la David yang aku maksudkan.. Marvelous gitu.. David Cook nama dia.. Remember his name guys..

Walaupun ramai (memang ramai gila la) yang minat David yang aku tak minat tu, tapi David yang aku minat ni performance dia selalu tip-top.. David yang aku tak minat tu dulu2 mmg dia best dan plus cute tapi sebagai seorang yang mementingkan bakat (hihihi) David yang aku minat tu memang marbelos gitu.. So, minatla David yang aku minat.. hehehe.. And this week.. perghhhh.. best gila.. dan aku akhirnya berjaya menjumpai... the new american idol! Percayala.. tapi ada kemungkinan la dia kalah.. huhuhu.. sbb takat ni yang aku minat semuanya kalah.. Tapi kalau orang america tu bijak cam aku.. si David Cook ni la yang akan menang.. Hihihi..

Ok la.. Selesaila mengomel serba sedikit pasal dunia hiburan.. hehehe... Oh, lagi satu Tuesday is the best day in Malaysia.. Why?

9.00 pm - Heroes
10.00 pm - Prison Break..

hehehe..

Me, Living in Selangor...

Monday's Joke of The Day..

"Sahaja aku keluar barisan, menaiki roket menuju ke bulan demi keadilan.." Amin...

This is the talk around office on Monday, in fact it was the Only talk we had on Monday.. from 9 to 5..

Tuesday..

Working time! Solution solution solution.. Still don't got it anyway.. Life Sucks!

Anyway, that's not the point of this entry. Living in the state of opposition (from government la) really interesting and a rare opportunities.. Here, there is no ashame on admitting the opposition's side. People who do support the government is the one who need to subdue their opinion and become a listener. Yesterday, when I stop by at a stall to buy laksa, this guy start to talk about how bad for Perak to lose to DAP but wrong place man.. This is Selangor.. You just trigger the wrong topic.. It was so funny to see that guy to finally agree the argument of opposition's side. I truly believe he just pretend and 'bengkak' inside. HAHAHA..

For me? I'm not at any side. I have my own opinion and I believe this situation is great. Now, government has to be careful to win back people votes and the oppositions got their chance to prove that they deserved this opportunities. I'm at the side of Malaysian!

BN Gagal dapat 2/3...

Artikel from Malaysia Today :

Pimpinan Pak Lah punca BN Kalah Teruk..

I agree..

Wedding on Election Day..

Today my old time friend wedding at Selayang.. So, too bad it was on the election day.. but being a good friend, I got to go la.. I drive all the way from Kajang to Selayang.. The traffic was horrible.. Jammed Gila! I took more than 3 hours to arrive to my destination... But I got one interesting story...

The traffic was horrible.. My leg sore. Ada ala-ala menyesal.. hehehe.. and I wonder, why it was so bad? (certain2 area the traffic was totally horrible) So.. we passed "PAS" station.. the people angkat2 sepanduk and wearing the bendera.. Ohh... Then we passed "BN" station.. the people even wearing a mask of their calon.. Ohh.. Then we passed "PKR" same things.. the people wearing the flag and full of spirit gitu.. Ohh.. Lots of them look young (I mean around my age la).. Then the traffic seems to be ok a bit.. Then, from far I can see this one guy kibarkan bendera.. Full of spirit! He is the champion of all.. I wonder, what party ha? It was so hot out there.. This guy must love his party soo much.. But The flag is Red.. Hmmm.. DAP ka? I don't think so.. We come nearer and nearer.. and guess what?? It's Mc Donald's flag! It was so surprising and I don't realize I just took the wrong route.. So, we pusing2 Selayang.. stop to ask peole a few times and almost give up.. Thank god around 3.00++ we arrived at my friend's wedding..

There is another story at the wedding.. about a cute couple from Penang..

We arrived and I introduced myself to my friend (because my friend totally forget my face.. they said I look different.. maybe more beautiful now than before.. Hahaha).. Anyway, we sit next to this pak cik (can consider atok la.. so old).. He begin the conversation with us.. He ask me, "Dah ngundi ke?", So, I said "Oh, dah tadi".. He told us, he come right away after voting kat Penang sana (jauh tu) but this is his family (sepupu) wedding so, he came.. (with anak2 la). Then he asked again "Pangkah ape? dacing ke bulan?".. Hehehe.. We both answered "Undi adalah rahsia" Kui kui kui.. But at the same time, his wife pitch him and warning him.. "jangan nak kempen kat sini" and he answered "bukan dapat duit pon".. But they look so cute together.. that nenek look malu2 gitu.. Wow so cute.. and that atok pun cam amuse ja.. I love that moment and I captured it in my memory.. Life is beautiful...

The End... (sorry for my bad writing.. malas gila ni)

Malam Citer Seram.. Hari Makan2..

Last night my friend come over to my house, we planned to watch "Don't Look Back" (Jangan Pandang Belakang).. Scary Giler.. Serious. I'm scared! It just not for me. I don't like scary movie coz it makes me scared.. hehehe.. Anyway DLB is The best Malaysian made scary movie! I scream a lot! No wonder it became one of the top movie in Philippine. Anyway, in the middle of the movie my house mate came and join us.. So, they love scary movie. Ok fine. . I enjoy it as long as they enjoy it.. (Un)fortunately, they want to continue watching scary movie.. We watched "Hantu Jerut Purut" - Indonesian scary movie. Not as scary as DLB but scary jugak la.. Wawawa.. I hate them! Why? Why? Hehehe..

My friend ni somehow I think have (what we call ek, yg queen bee ada tu) kind of hormone yg attract people (guys or girls).. My house mate (the one that rarely spent time at home) like her I think. So, the next day she decide to cook for us.. Ok.. I help her la since I'm a nice person.. hehehe.. She go to pasar and bought ikan terubuk (my request.. hehehe) and some sotong. So, we eat quite a lot (my house mate even present the cook nicely like in restoren) Hehehe.. ok la, it's fine. I enjoy it.

Talk about my house mate (one of the two).. Erm, she is some kind of attention seeker (i think la) I pity her when my friend didn't ask question when she talk about her Moscow trip.. hehehe.. and she also show some picture of her with Sheikh Muzaffar's mother (Angkasawan Negara tu..).. and still my friend kind of ignore her or more likely not so interested la.. hehehe.. and I don't help either.. Hahaha.. She even talk about her 'panorama' segment (yg tv1 nye slot tu).. hehehe.. I just don't want to encourage her (like I always did).. Somehow I just tired.. I still pity her but maybe I shouldn't.. My other house mate so 'laser' to her yesterday (She said right to her face that she is soo pretentious!).. so, I play soft.. hehehe.. (apa yg aku mengarut ni.. hehehe) The point is, I feel sorry for her.. And I'm sorry for feel that. I shouldn't.

Ok la, not enough with a nice lunch for us. She cook muffin for us (I help too la).. then, after around one hour she cook nasi goreng (this one quite surprising la.. i already have enough food) anyway, I just eat for her sake.. after all she did the cook. It's too bad my other house mate not at home. It will be a nice drama to watch. Hahaha..

Too Hot To Resist!

Ok.. 1st I have to admit, I am not perfect. 2nd I am truly like football game, to have a gorgeous footballer playing the game is totally a bonus. 3rd I do crazy of FC Barcelona, no doubt about that. And most important, I LOVE Messi! Cute and very talented.. God given talent on ball control and great great player and a promise of the great future.. And do understand.. I am not Liverpool fan (I'm really hate them last year when they knock out Barca out of Champion League)

But.. but.. Fernando Torres is soooo Hot! :-D.

Gorgeous .. Fernando Torres with Liverpool since 2007/2008

Fernando Torres with Atlético Madrid (Youth 1995 - 2001, Senior 2001-2007)

He is Spain No. 9

Some Commercial.. ;-) meltttss....

This is the best one. That's Olalla.. his girlfriend. Picture (left) taken when he pick her up from work. He knows her since 1992 when his parents bought a house in Galicia.. That's mean when he is 8 years old.
Rumors said that he tattoo his shin VII VII MMI (7/7/2001) as represent the date of his first date with Olalla.

We all know Footballer dates Supermodel.. (Olalla is not :-) ) so Torres completely impress me. She is pretty and this is the Real Love.. Isn't it lovely??? (They are still together)

Just a bonus picture ;-)

I Am Tired! ( I don't think this is the right title anyway)

Isn't I said I love 2008 in the previous post? I'm absolutely had spoiled it. I don't have a good start this year. And I am tired, I mean really tired.. Right now. At this moment.

I just watched Oprah about happiness. There are actually a research about happiness in London. They (the expert) say that we don't have to pursue happiness from outside because happiness is inside you.. You have to find the happiness inside your heart and pursue it.. (something like that la) And one of the guess (the happy person) said that happiness is not about how successful you are but how significant you are to people around you.. Well I agree.

But honestly, I still don't understand happiness. It is too subjective to study and I wonder, the people who 'study' happiness, are they happy? And happiness for me is always in unstable mode.. Isn't our hormone take a big part on deciding that? Knowing that, we all know how unstable our hormone are.

Conclusion.. I hate it when people tried to define happiness. Please don't. It's pretentious. We all trying to be happy and don't measure it like a study of physics.. unless when we can actually come out with some kind of data or statistic which it can't never be.

The Silent War! Gosh I Hate Her!

I’m a “Peace” person. I love peace, I will not start a fight with anybody and if I can, I will avoid making any scene and obviously, I’m not a drama queen. Although, people at the airport always treat us like a ball, they kick us all around the airport before finally said that this is the right line (I hate Air Asia!) I still maintain my charming. But.. Now I have a war in the office. This is what I call the silent war and we don’t really talk (well… ). The war is between Kate and the rest of us (5 cute ladies). I don’t understand her, well we can say I kind of understand her problem but I absolutely do not understand her action. I was her friend and I did love her as a friend… Until she decides that she doesn’t need me as her friend anymore. She decides that our friendship is not important.. at least not as important as her “affair”. So, this is what happen, we walk away from this friendship. Like Lida said “Friend is NOT forever” and I felt like crying every time I think of it.

The Story Began..

We love hanging out together.. We jog together and sometimes we shop together. We enjoy our company and I used to tell her my little sad story and she was indeed a friend who always listens. Maybe this is her strength and her weakness. She always listens, people like telling her story and maybe so did our senior. But not all people had a good intention. This senior start to play around, he tried to touch her hand and talk “bad” words. She was so depressed, she cried and we decide if it became worst we will tell the big boss..

Then..

I don’t know how, that guy kept taking her time and she started to forget us, people around her. Or dared I said, friends around her. So, time consuming, she had no more time for us and the fact that both of them already married to someone else did not matter anymore. I remember asking her “are u OK now?” and she told me, it was nothing to worry. She told me the reason they are close (like a dove) is nothing but professional.. It’s a job thing! Well.. she look happier and fading away..

The Action..

Being a straight forward person, I told her that she is going too far but we end up, me being a speculative and bad person. They are “just a friend!” who like to talk.. a lot.. But.. He is the only friend she wants now. I was becoming invisible. Like a silhouette.. but I still love her, I was just so frustrated..

The Turning Point..

She kept give me reasons to back away. Her friends do not matter anymore, and series of broken promises started. I can’t handle it. She was not here anymore. She in her own world and I’m not part of it. She pushed us away. I hate her and I miss her but she obviously doesn’t.

The Result…

I’m starting to ignore her. We talk only when we need to. I know, I give up on her.. I should not do that to a friend but she was the one who started it. Friendship is not a one way highway; it takes two people to be friends. But, I would ever never imagine that she will do this to me, to us.. She boycotts us! She won’t talk to us.. she do her own thing now.. She stay away from us, she alienated us. She makes us her enemy.. Why? I can’t understand this! She is the one who makes the mistake. She is the one who disappointed us not the other way around.

What she thinks? We should understand her little love story? It’s not even cute! In fact I think it’s ugly. Who on earth will bless infidelity? She makes me sick! And truly I can’t imagine, a long time ago, she was my friend.. It seems so not real! I wish she disappear and OUT of my life.