Current Status..

Remember when i said i'm not sure if I want to continue being a student... Yes.. I'm still a student. It is not like me to give up but now I started to regret it. I still not a bright student. I feel so lazy to do homework (I did anyway)... I feel that maybe I made a wrong decision... Huhuhu... I still can't find a way to remember all the vocab. I suck at listening and the teacher speak so fast... So so tired with all these...

One good point is.. I still like Korean language. I just hope that I am already excell on this. Purp said I am a lazy student... and all of this is my own fault. I am not sure if I agree with her statement but I really dont have anything to argue back... Maybe I was lazy but I am also busy... So??? Huhuhu... Arghh so frustrated with this situation. Can somebody just invent some device that can just download a vocabulary in my brain? Pretty pleasssse.....

저는 학생 이에요... 한국어배워요... 팔월 한국에 가요...

안녕!!

Should I still be a student?

It's true... I'm a student, a part timer to be specific... I take Korea class since December last year (gigih.. :P)

The reason and the only reason I took this class is just for fun.. I truly enjoyed it, it also help me as a problem reliever... And it was going well until last month...

Last month I had finished Level 1 - Yay!!! Good job! I can read Korean now.. understand few words and can bragging about that to my friends... hehehe... The total 10 people in my class is very nice.. we were happy will our effort... Then, the question came out.. "Do you want to continue for Level 2?"

Being an 'adventurous' me.. :-P, I want to continue to Level 2.. Yay! It was fun and I can meet new friends.. It was something out of my routine and also I can relieve some tension... I knew I was not a bright student when come to language but I survive Level 1 and it was not that bad...

Level 2 begin.....

It was a major step up... The new teacher is good and ................. serious, strict, energetic and demanding... Huhuhu... We got homework and all other students seem so good... Now, every time before class started, I feel restless.. She will ask question us (in Korean) and wait for student to answer. I feel pressurize to answer the question (in Korean also), when it come my turn and if I can't answer she will pointedly asked me, which part that I don't understand.. And then she will ask the class and they can answer it! Arghhhhh... this always happen... Me, a bad student!

It is not that I'm not trying... I did.. well maybe not as much as others.. but... Language is my nemesis.. It is like I want to be a singer, but I can't sing.. I don't have the talent... But I really wanna be a singer. The same with language.. I love to learn language.. I tried Arabic, German and Spanish before but I was so bad.. Now I tried Korean and I gave it a little more effort.. but, still I'm so slow.. Should I give up? Learning Korean is for fun.. that was my reason.. But I was not so much fun anymore... Instead of a tension reliever it becomes the source of my tension.. I still have 2 more classes to go before the next payment... I'll give myself 2 more trial and see how it works for me... 

Here some pictures:

Me doing a homework...

 Me studying...

 Me trying to remember words by write it down at my office whiteboard.. It's in my own office, so it's okay :) Hoping by looking at it all the time will help me memorize it

Me sticking some note at the side of my Computer to make it easy for me to memorize it...

See, I'm doing this much but maybe I'll admit defeat soon... Everything is too much. I hate being stupid in the class. I must admit.. language is my weakness. I spent my whole life learning English and still not good at it. How can I be optimistic in learning Korean?

2010 Reflection.. huh 2009????

Aku sedar aku mmg malas malas malas tulis blog tahun ni.. Don't know why.. I guess.. FB????

Maybe la... Post aku utk 2010 65 posts jer... Then aku check post on January 2010.. Aku tak list down my "Azam 2010" pun.. Walla.. What happen??? That's mean no reflection of 2009 as well.. Ni bukan tertinggal bas or kapal terbang lagi dah ni., Ni dah tahap tertinggal 1 km ke belakang dalam acara sukaneka lari dalam guni!

Dalam membaca entry January 2009, aku dapat rasakan perubahan diri aku.. I think I like  he 2009 me better, sebab the way I wrote my blog felt so easy going, funny at times ,weird and crazy... Too much barca's influence.. hehe...

Since I don't have a list of Azam 2010 to measure my kpi :P (boo hooo) let just go back another year and sum it all up... This is my copy and paste of Azam 2009!

Azam 2009:

1. To continue success in my Master program and get a very very good result and give a good impression of myself..
2. To lose weight.. Target? 15 pound down! :D
3. To be nicer to people (ni macam every year azam je.. hehehe)
4. To exercise more.. mean, try to go to gym sekerap yang mungkin..
5. Learn to be a better cooker
6. Well.. be a good student!

Tercapai kah?
Let's go by number!

1. Yee Haaaa!!!!! YES! YES! I DID IT!
I got my Master in Electrical Engineering! and I did get a VERY VERY GOOD result! 4.0 in cgpa.. Not even in my dream that I'll achieve this! This is one of the sweetest and proudest memory in my life!

I love this shot... Feel 'artistic' (but coming from me, you can just 'bleh' it..)

2. Lose weight!
YEAH! I DID IT BABY!
15 pounds is my target on 2009... and I didn't achieve it by end of 2009 but I did successfully lost 33 pounds by end of 2010! Amazing right? Even me wonder how did it happen???

 
Left is me in Sept 2008 and right is me in Sept 2010.. ;-)

3. Nicer to people? Hahaha.. I somehow believe that I'm not a very considerate person... I always don't realize what is sensitive for others... and end up hurting people without mean it.. Now  I'm growing and wiser.. and I learned a lot from my new friends... And if I can declare meeting some people is an achievement.. I will declare that knowing Gigi and Yuri is my best achievement! I even go as far as saying it was even worthier  than my Master degree... ;-)

My mizzou best buddies... <3

4. I did exercise a lot early this year.. but since I came back... It gradually going down.. :(

5. I achieve this successfully! With a series of 'calling my mum for recipe,' I'm so proud of myself! hehehe... Tapi since I came back... I also cooked less and I'm afraid that I'm gonna forget everything. BUT, I trust my hidden skills of cooking and I know that when I determined to do it, it will be a success! (lagi adegan perasan tahap gaban)

6. Be a good student is a bit outdated for this reflection.. Anyway I was!... errr I think la.

The list is done but I'm gonna add some more! I told myself that yang aku nak g panjat bukit broga b4 2011 as my 1st step to daki gunung Kinabalu (ewah! ada hati :p) So I did!

Snap shots at Broga Hill! 25 Dec 2010

Dah banyak kali plan nak panjat bukit ni.. asyik cancel sbb kejap A available, B lak tak available and etc etc.. Last2 aku go on je the plan no matters who's available.. Last2 aku ngan Purp je panjat bukit ni.. Yang penting.. I HAD FUN!!! :D

What else? Okay.. Travelling log... Last two years was the time where I travel the most in my life! Sampai dah tak larat dah.. Anyway, I have to grab this opportunity since I study abroad.. Lepas ni bila la pulak kan... Here some pichas summary...

Gi Chicago on Spring Break 09, pastu early Summer 09 break gi Boston and NY, then on Oct g Washington DC

Aku balik Malaysia time Summer break 09... Take that opportunities bawak family jalan2 gi tgk Masjid Kristal kat Kuala Terengganu..

On the way back dari Malaysia ke US.. Aku singgah Europe jap... Memang percutian yang paling aku tunggu2 sebab akhirnya aku dapat menjejak kaki di mana Messi memijak kakinya... Hehehe.. So, Messi and I dah ada things in common... :PPPPP (sudah2 la tu...) Also went to Germany, London and Liverpool as well.. 

 

On Winter break 10... We travel to St Louis, Las Vegas, San Francisco and LA & Hollywood... 

From Las Vegas, we took one day tour to Grand Canyon :)

My final destination while I'm in USA is Florida... We went there to celebrate our graduation! So happy~~~ We went to Disney World and Sea World... What a good old time :)

With this I wrapped my Year 2009 - 2010 and start a new chapter of 2011... I'm proudly said.. I end my 2010 with a happy smile~~~~ :D

c ya!
(p/s: Now got to list my azam 2011) ~~~ later...

A mixed feeling....

I'm D.O.N.E!!!

Defense <---- Done!
Thesis <---- Done!
YAY!!!!!

I'm excited to end this journey... I'm also sad to end this journey...
It is a mixed feeling...

When I think about going home to Malaysia... I feel so happy.. Back to where I belong... with my family, friends and everything that belong to me.. my house, my car, my work.... everything.... and my longing for Malaysian food will cure.. It is a nice feeling... I can't wait!

But... at the same time, I'm gonna leave Mizzou.. my memories here.... My friends here, my apartment... I'm gonna leave something that is so sweet and meaningful here... While I'm here, my perspective become wider.. In some way, I feel that something changed inside me... I see the world in different view... I am indeed a better person now (that's what I think at least)

What comes next?

The series of farewell parties will follow... (hmm, next week will be busy eating!) I have a list of friends that I'm gonna have dinner with... So, bye bye diet.. hehehe

Packing time.... huhuhu.. I hate this! Somebody do it for me!!!

Clean the apartment... I am dreading to do this..

And finally but most important.. :-DDDD
I have one more travel vacation to celebrate my success here ;-)
Where?


It will be a surprise!

Writing is Done!

I'm here to celebrate the end of writing the thesis... YAY!
Total pages is 112.. I'm glad.. :-)

Now, what's left is:

Preparing the presentation and defense it!

The defense date is July 21st, 2010, 3 pm... Pray for me guys... I hope everything goes smoothly...

I can't wait to finish this!

Seriously.. I'm tired of study!!!

Last but not least, condolences to Mimi and family... Semoga arwah sentiasa diberkatiNya... I wish you are alright and please be strong... My pray is with you...

The permanent resident of computer lab is speaking...

So far I'm survive without personal laptop...
So, what comes into me? What am I suppose to do as my bed time story?
No more online manga... No more youtube videos... No more facebook stalking...

I came back to original me.. When the laptop is not my dearest best friend...
A novel...
I'm reading a few chapters of story books that has been on my bedside table for months...

I have no problem writing my thesis in computer lab.. I have all the material with me in my external HDD and also I always back-up my data on Mizzou's student online space.. So, I'm good with my thesis.. Remember guys.. Always back-up! ;-)

The only problem is I have to go to school... Cannot do work at home... Kena jadi lebih rajin dari biasa.. My schedule become:

morning:
wake-up
shower
watch TV
prepare breakfast and lunch or brunch

noon:
biking to school - Library

6 - 8 p.m:
gym

8p.m - 12 a.m:
computer lab (it open 24 hrs :-D)

after midnight:
gossiping
read novels
watch TV

That's my routine normally... ;-) the time always varies except for the gym time.. it's the same everytime.. :)

ps: my apartment very close to school okie...

We'll be together again...

Evanescence - Together Again

Never thought that I'd be leaving you today
So alone and wondering why I feel this way
So wide the world
Can love remember how to get me home to you
Someday

We'll be together again
All just a dream in the end
We'll be together again

So many fears were swimming around and around in my mind
Who would have dreamed the secrets we would find

I've found a world where love and dreams and darkness all collide
Maybe this time we can leave our broken world behind

We'll be together again
All just a dream in the end

Single 2010 dari Evanescence... Lagu ini ditujukan kepada keluarga dan kawan2 di Malaysia... hehehe..

ps: this is my warming up session before start writing my thesis... ;-)

The good :-) and the bad :-( news....

The gap between these two things is just a few hours... So, right now.. I have a mix feeling.. :s

First, the good news...
Yesterday... Finally it's time for me to do the experiment at the cyclotron facility... All my calculation, laboratory experiment is being prepared for this... I'm excited and nervous (a bit) at the same time.. What I'm gonna do if it doesn't works? Then.. when the moment of truth came... YAY!!! It's working.. and it is as I predicted... My advisor suddenly said... "oh, that's mean the calculation is correct".. I'm like.. What??? (but still happy la).. Did he didn't had a confident in me??? huh... c-mon, I'm 100% sure my theory and calculation is correct.. if something going wrong.. is the machine's fault.. :P hehehe... So, I did had a good day.. A very good day indeed...

Here come the bad news... Now I think, maybe it is not good to be too happy.. coz then the bad thing will happen.. :(((

Because I'm so happy... I give myself a break... I play the whole day (play means not doing my thesis - recently always stay in lib or lab till midnight.. huhuhu) and become energetic and can't sleep.. Before sleep, as usual.. surfing the internet and read manga (reading japanese comic is my daily xtvt here).. Suddenly, my laptop go green... the vertical bright green lines appeared and then hang... I restart.. and dang! my laptop monitor color look like being put in the blender... everything mixed together... The monitor have a vertical green background.. ala the matrix.. and then it's hang again.. I cannot use high resolution.. only can be open in safe mode environment.. I immediately back-up all my important data by guessing where certain button was.. because my screen is like being put in watercolor... I did back-up everything... But I'm a bit deepressed with this situation... Right now, I gave the laptop to my friend so he will see if he can help me.. Most probably, the problem is the video card... I won't buy sony again... This is my 1st Sony laptop and I only used it for 2 years... Not enough time to give me problems... Furthermore.. It's VAIO! I bought it because I thought it worth my freaking money!!!

Right now, I'm using my friend's old laptop if I need to do something important.. But I really need my laptop.. EVERYTHING is there.. huhuhu... For time being... I will be a permanent resident of computer lab.. my friend's laptop doesn't has word 2007... and it's slow... But I'm thankful for having it...

Dugaan~~~

problemo.. problemo...

It is summer and my house is sweating!

Seriously, I'm telling the truth.. My house is sweating... huhuhu.. That's why, even though now is summer and my upstair neighbour (GG) is hot macam cacing kepanasan every night.. rumah i, high humidity.. So, it's cold.. I don't realize it before because last summer I'm not here in US.. bz travelling back to Malaysia and Europe... Rhupa2nya.. my lantai ada problem.. Now, it always wet!!! The coz is the pipe underground... Maybe coz too many people using AC.. the pipe getting too cold and the water (very thin, like a sweat) come out from my floor.. Huhuhu.. uzur sungguh rumah aku..

2 bulan ++ to go.. Please be well my house.. I'll leave you soon... Please don't flood anymore (it happy b4) coz i'm literally living underground.. sebab my house betul2 kat lereng bukit.. So, bila tgk tingkap belakang nampak bumi...

One more.. My laptop power supply burn last night.. HUHUHU.. Kena beli set power supply yg baru.. kena cepat coz "my laptop is my life" here.. esp now, I'm in the process of writing a thesis... I don't think I can get Sony vaio original power supply in short notice like this.. I'm gonna buy the universal one either at Best Buy, Target or Radio Shack..Anywhere that available... I need it immediately.. coz the battery for my laptop dah kiok... Tahan 30 minit jer...

Another problem.. Now I'm stuck with my experiment.. The measurement equipment yg aku selalu guna asyik tak available jer... Ni la susahnya kalau kena pinjam barang... Kalau aku email 10 kali karang nampak macam pushy pulak.. aku baru jer email 3 kali mintak update... patut dah buat last week.. dah one week delay ni.. huhuhu...

Another problem??? Tolong.. tolong tulis thesis untuk aku.. I have all the data and material.. boleh tak tolong tuliskan dan tolong baca papers utk aku.. Now sangat malas... I need to graduate this Ogos ok... please motivasi.. please idea.. please come to me...

Cukuplah kali ni.. kalau aku sambung tulis pasal masalah peribadi plak, nanti boleh jadi new thesis pulak.. major in psychology... hehe

done.

Graduation pics...

ni preview jer.. hehehe... sebab actual graduation is in August! :D

Sebenarnye nak komen.. mak ai, mahal gila orang puteh ni jual gambaq... So, aku tak akan beli la.. amik gambar sendiri je la.. then balik Malaysia nanti pi studio.. ;-)


Ni hasil crop.. dia watermark gambar ni sebesar alam... Anyway, I like my pic.. :)

Update...

Semenjak dua menjak ni.. aku sangat malas menulis blog... Those yang in my fb friends list (haha catz) boleh tau la my update.. sebabnye lately aku just upload photo there....

Anyway, since the title is update, I'm going to update la...

1. Research
My research is doing good so far... The preliminary experiment give a good result.. Now, I'm going to set up the experiment at the cyclotron machine... haha.. can't wait.. BUT my writing going so slow... Huhuhu... Tak reti/malas/no idea/etc etc....

2. Diet (some of my friends said.. we should rename this.. instead of diet.. we should rename it livet)
My plan so far goes well... (Cannot jinx this.. :p ) But it's work! LOL... BUT..... BUT...... Hear this... I run (elliptical) at least 1hr and do weight lifting another 1 hr OR play badminton for around 2 hrs OR biking for at least 2 hrs.. 6 times per week... Try to eat less but I'm not starving because I don't believe on starving diet... just eat enough... I maintain this schedule for 1 month already.. 2 months +++ to go before go home Malaysia.... Anyway, I don't lose weight like crazy.. It just go down steadily since the diet plan is built that way... I hope I can cont. in Malaysia (HAHAHA... well.. whatever.. everything is start from believing right?) So, my friends (esp: Purp and catz) let's go to gym together!!! ;-)

I think that conclude all.. my study and my life here... Oh by the way.. I already had a commencement day.. haha.. Of course I will not post the pictures until August... It will be anti-climax if I post it now.. :)

c ya! ;-)

Tensyen + bla bla~~~

1. Result tak OK! :(((((( Pening memikirkan ape la sebabnya result simulation and practical tak match ni???? Tadi jumpa advisor discuss... we akan try again next week...

2. Sangat mengantok... Semalam takleh tido sebab result tak OK..

3. Esok el-classico... should be excited but mood down... (Real Madrid vs Barca)

4. Good little news... 2008--> jean's size - 10.. Now, jean's size - 6 (Levi's standard)

5. Malas.. baru habis tulis satu chapter.. my advisor checked.. banyak gila pen merah as grammar error.. tak tau plak my advisor can be English teacher as well. I'm amazed.. seriously... and my English is so bad. :((((



6. I love Muse (British band) listen to them a lot lately.. really like their style

7. Dah 2 minggu tak pi gym.. sebab cedera lutut.. Now dah ok, boleh jalan normal o-le-di.. tapi masih sakit2.. huhuhu..

8. I love spring! cuaca tak sejuk and tak panas...

Sekian, kali ini...

p/s: otak jammed.. sangat malas berfikir utk construct ayat or whatever....

Have a nice weekend guys!

Perghhh..Lisssss... Hehehe...

Told ya' that I'm gonna upload the pics of the robe in the plastic bag.. Well, I really mean in the plastic bag okie.. ;-)

Here it is.. :-DD

The cap! with 2010 tassel ;-)

Orange for Enginering.. weird ha? I thought it gonna be green (typical engineering color in regard of St. Patrick).. I'm glad it's orange.. I like!

Hehehe....

Syiok sendiri... LOL...

Note: sila baca entry di bawah.. :P

I'm ready for commencement!

Hahaha...

First of all, aku nak gelak dulu... Thesis tak siap lagi, ada hati nak cakap pasal commencement day.. Hari ni aku dengan suka hatinya pegi beli jubah for the commencement day.. Kat sini, Master level kena beli jubah.. So, nanti kalau ada sesape teringin nak pakai jubah graduation day from University of Missouri, sila sewa dari I ok...

Mizzou hanya ada dua kali commencement day every year.. one is on Spring semester (May) and onother one is on Fall semester (Dec).. Since aku akan graduate on Summer semester (August) I can choose. Logiknye, takkan la aku nak datang balik Dec kan.. So, some of my friends and me pegi tanya grad school today, kalau we can walk this May and graduate on August... After fill in some form.. Yay!!! I can! So, my commencement day will be held before I graduate.. How cool? :p

p/s: Nanti I put the pics of the robe yg masih dalam plastic bag.. Now malas nak pi cari camera.. ;-)

Later!

It's Confirm...

If last time I said I don't know that either I will graduate in May or in August... Now I can confirm it.

I will graduate in August.

On today meeting with my advisor, we discussed about the time that suitable for me to defend my thesis based on the progress of our project. To be honest, the project that I'm doing now have several delay factors:

1. The equipments such as power supply, power resistor and magnetic wires
2. The development of the core

These two factors is a human factor, which mean we have to depend on other people, as well as depending on the availability. So, the experiment is the most delay factor here.. We try our best to speed up thing.. Seriously. And you know one thing lead to the other... The design, simulation and writing is of course up to me.. Well, I admit that one is somehow also slow.. hehehe... (Come on, I need motivation here :p) by the way.. the design is done long time ago and the simulation is 90% done.. for writing.. 20%???? :P

Most likely I will defend my thesis on July. No fix date yet but I'm almost sure it will be on July. I will fly home hopefully on early or middle of August.

That's it the update of my progress.. ;-)

Back to Ice Age!

Today is snowing...

Sangat bagus untuk tidur...
Sangat mengantuk...
Tapi kena baca buku... huhuhu...

Sepanjang minggu ni suhu akan di bawah tahap beku...

Menyebabkan perasaan sangat malas...

Tapi research saya..... huhuhu...

Tensi!

Reason: The Research.. :((((

Conclusion: I hate emf

Solution: baca manga

the end

Spring Semester Start!!!

Ok.. The battle begin!

Semester ni aku tak ada kelas.. Research 100%.. Tapi seriously, aku rasa lebih pressure berbanding kelas.. Sebabnya, research aku tak progress as well as I expected.. Kalau aku nak graduate in May.. Aku mesti defend thesis on April.. So, maksudnya aku ada dalam 3 bulan saja... dan aku belum start writing anything... Zero! My experiment pulak.. Fail! huhuhu.. So, hari ni aku discuss ngan advisor aku, dia suruh aku re-design the circuit and aku jumpa another professor untuk bagi suggestion.. Now, I got the software to model my design.. Sebelum ni aku guna hands calculation... My hand calculation is not bad.. I believe in it but with this model I can get more accurate and I can predict better I guess... Anyware.. overall.. I'M SCARED!

So, pray for me guys... Worst come to the worst.. I have to graduate on August..

Holiday over!

Well... winter break belum habis lagi tapi aku dah start kena buat research... huhuhu... Sebenarnya aku patut mula sejak minggu lepas lagi tapi memandangkan cuaca yang terlalu sejuk.. aku cakap kat advisor aku aku tak dapat jalan pegi lab.. too cold... Masalahnya lab aku jauh.. jalan amik masa dalam 20 - 30 minit.. Kalau time semester ada shuttle bus, tapi time break takde.. Advisor aku pun advise jangan pi.. So.. :)))

Well, dalam gambar nampak happy happy kan.. well, memang la happy tapi jari tangan dan kaki aku hampir beku tau.. Suhu last week around -20 Celcius.. Sejuk gila... Suhu kat Alaska pun tak sesejuk ni (kisah benar ok.. menurut perbualan mat salleh belakang aku).. Kalau tengok kat weather channel, diorang ada cakap pasal angin pekebende ntah yang lalu kat certain area.. bla bla bla...

Anyway, minggu ni suhu semakin naik... at least during noon time.. mencapai la kosong darjah celcius.. So, kalau aku jalan 20 minit masih boleh bertahan lagi la... Tapi, huhuhu.. penat aa.. dah la jauh, pastu kena jalan dalam salji.. kalau nak test.. cuba korang pi pantai yang pasirnya lembut.. pijak je tenggelam kaki.. jalan la dalam 20 minit... gitu la rasanya.. pastu, tadi buat experimet result tak bagus... waa... :(((

Ok la.. sebenarnya inila tujuan aku tulis kali ni.. nak complaint... huhuhu.... Sebab time sejuk2 ni aku teringin nak makan KFC.. (boleh tak?) hehehe... tolong post kfc boleh?

Hmm... I'm going to gym now... panaskan badan dan main badminton... tapi masih tak kurus2... :p

chao :)

HAHAHAHA....

As I said.. Life is full of surprises.....

Today I got my CGPA result... Well, based on the title you should guess what I got right???



HAHAHAHA...

Today I cannot stop smiling... hehehe.. Seriously, this semester I don't expect to get all As... So, I'm sorry for being smug.. :)))

What a good day....

p/s: I'm off to plan my holiday.. will update later guys... :DDDDD